a holiday friday

this week without cast i walked alot... i really can't settle down sitting the whole day... kept walking ard my hse and climbing up and down the stairs... :X
btw, today i was out whole day... went dempsay road for lunch and headed jp to watch ninja assassin and had dinner there... arms very sore now from all the walking... but still better den staying home watching tv... :P

5th week

yes... my aircast is not needed anymore... i've not used it for 3 days already... my ankle felt so much better so i decided to walk without the aircast... turned out it was really fine already... without the aircast, i'm moving faster and more stable... the aircast bottom is so thick, i can't feel the ground at all and made me walk damn slow... but still got to relax abit!!! standing too long the ankle will feel sore... :X

btw i'm back sleeping in my own room upstairs already since last friday... had been sleeping downstairs with my younger sister bedroom... but last friday , i started climbing up and down the stairs so decided to sleep at my own bedroom again... feel so good sleeping back there... weeeeee.... :P

btw i injured both legs... so for the first 4 weeks, i had to use a walker to move ard... the one that elderly used... caused my right leg which i can onli used was very unstable... my ankle was so swollen... i got no choice only can use walker instead of crutches which looked abit stupid... but since last week, i started using crutches already and now without my aircast...

ok shall update my recovery till here... take care everyone!!!

RIDE SAFE!!!

cheers
ling

cold day

After thinking abt it, I guess I do need to apologize abt my bad attitude the 2 to 3 weeks before the accident. The accident was really terrifying. I was left alone for a couple of mins in the middle of the road without help and I felt so scared and having night mares at the same scene again and again. So whenever ppl text me, email, msn or facebook massage asking what happened and how am I, I really don’t feel like telling them what happened or anything abt the accident. So I just ignored everyone asking it. Plus I wasn’t alright at all. my mood was so bad and I don’t feel good at all. so angry and sad. I know everyone who texted ppl to ask r u alright, expect the other party to reply ‘ya’. So I decided not to reply at all.

4th week

after 4 weeks... my wounds had all closed and dried up nicely... now i left with just the bone to heal which will take another... 8 weeks??? anyway, femur bone recovery will take sometime... ohh and my taill bone too will need ard that time since nth had been done on it... :P

my left leg muscle had fully recovery for sometime already... the first week after op, i cant lift the leg or use it cause the muscle turned damn weak... its pretty stiff now!!! the cut some muscle to put the metal in and now the muscle growing ard the metal is really stiff... been trying hard to slowly bend my knee ard to loosen that part... but of coz slowly!!!

since my muscle came back... been do lots of strengthening on the left leg... obviously weight less strenthening... some leg lifts, ankle lift, ankle press... trying to work the whole muscle parts for my left leg... will carry on doing the weight less training till the bone is fully grown back... :P

anyway, bone growing is a million times terrible den muscle recovery like after a hard training session... i meant in the night... u feel ur heart rate up n down... sometimes ur leg suddenly jumped alittle... u'r sleeping on n off... ewwwwiiii... bad feelings... hopefully its really growing... :X

will be back to update how's my recovery going on... thanks guys for all the support and concern... been really sad the first 3 weeks so hope u guys understand my bad mood attitude... :X :X :X

cheers
ling

3weeks

tml will be 3 weeks after the accident... how am i doing? i'm moving ard alittle... still really painfully... but i can never forget how painful it was the day itself...

i rmb the day was really painful... i was screaming from being carried into the ambulance the whole journey to the hospital... my both legs were so painful... i still dun wanna believed my leg was broken and keep telling myself to move them straight and kept trying to stand... but i cant... realli cant, damn painful... my upper body wasnt much hurt, except for my head and left palm... so one of the ambulance guy keep pressing hard on my shoulders to stop me from sitting up... i so wanted to try to move my legs... i have to move them...

when i got into the hospital, the first guy who got me asked me whats my name and i told him while still screaming in pain... the next thing i was rushed into ER... all i saw was ceilings and ceilings moving damn fast... i started crying in real pain when they moved me from the ambulance bed to the ER bed... i really believed my leg was broken den... the moving actually shaked my legs so hard that i felt a electric shock pain straight from both my thighs to my hips... i started grabbing the nurse arms beside me... i rmb she hold my hand with both her hands and went closed to my head telling me pain killers coming and let my hand off... suddenly all quiet... i heard her voice a distance away shouting x ray starting... everyone out of the room this time... within 30 sec, everyone is back... they had to start shifting my legs straight... cause i was laying onto the right side all the way from the road to the ambulance to the ER with my leg bent... i cannot explain the type of pain it was when i was being made to lay straight... the next thing i knew... my left leg was lifted up slowly... while still crying in pain, i shouted what r they going to do with me... the nurse beside me told me they had to pull my left leg out cause my femur bone snapped in... of coz i shouted no no no... but they still have to do it... and i just screamed all the way with the nusre grabbing my hand... while they tied my left leg onto the stretcher, the other nurses started cleaning my wounds... those open wounds and cuts i got from landing on the road which is the right side... the pain killers were kicking in already... and i settled down alot... i was pushed to do a brain scan... even with pain killers, my legs still pain while they moved me from the bed to the scanning bed and of coz back again... but no choice... i injured my head too and they needed a image inside... after that, they checked the rest of my body... upper body for any more bones fracture or wounds... after the painful ER treatment, i was pushed slowly to the ward when i was already very tired from all the pain i suffered and took a rest as the strong painkillers numbed my whole body...

they couldn't operate me that day cause i lost alot of blood during the accident... they waited till the next day morning... but turned out my headache was growing more n more pain... i got some bleeding in my head... not much so the doctor said no need operation but they will monitor it... but its giving me alot of problem the first day... i was having growing headaches and throwing up everything... my breakfast b4 accident... the 100plus... plain water... arghhh!!! terrible... i hated that day...

so in the morning when i'm supposed to go for operation, they pushed it to evening and got me to scan my brain again in case the bleeding didnt stop... so with my still broken femur, they transfered me to the scan bed again... even with pain killers, the broken leg is just too painful... somemore after a day, the left leg got so swollen and i can feel sharp shock pain every small moevment which made the left leg being shaked.... anyway, after the scan, i fell aslp and was woken up ard 3 plus again for the operation... one of the doctor explained to me the operation details and they will put in the sleep soon... so ard 4pm i was operated...

i heard someone calling my name... the next thing a tube was pulled out of my throat... yes... i dunnoe why it had to be done like that but its was terrible... i wasn't fully awaked actually... but i rmb what happened... i felt the pains of my stitches... left thigh and right ankle... they pitched the left femur bone back, open my right ankle and knee wounds to clean and stitched them back... i started talking pain pain pain while still half awaked... the doctor came and asked the nurse how come she wasn't injecting pain killers into me... the nurse replied my heart rate was very low ard 40 plus so she did not dare to give it to me... the doctor laughed and replied thats my normal heart rate... the next thing, she injected pain killers and i'm off to sleep again... seriously funny... i rmb this conversation very clearly... :X

when i woke up, i'm already back in my ward and already 10pm at night with my family members beside me... the op took 4 hrs plus... that night i slept very easily after my family went home ard 11plus... the heavy pain killers i'm in kept me sleepy the whole night till the next day...